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  I'm so scared of writing bad poetry I've forgotten how it was all for me I still recall how the summer gravel gave Me the taste of escape you only see in dreams and prayers All my grey skies turned porcelain It took one crack of sunlight Through the storm I was dancing in It comes back to me like compulsive sin I'm sat motionless  As my reality grows dim It's just you and me in your Ford Fiesta '03, Pacific coastline rollercoaster Cured achromaticity, I'm now one step closer I purged my memory, now I've lost you forever I'm scared of falling too fast asleep Awake in the dark, forget that you found me My pride so fragile, it shattered under my skin Now I only live through your perceptions of me All my grey skies turned porcelain It took one taste of life For you to untie my injured wings At half-past the onset of dusk I'm rewriting these old stories Of unrequited love It's just you and me in your Ford Fiesta '03, wind in my hair kind of summ...

  Inspired By: The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived I hear the conversations Fade into the noise As deep as the oceans And as fierce as the tides The summit was extraordinary And the plummet, steady I threw myself over the ledge After you were destined to catch me I call it fool's timing When the prospects of my fate had turned Buried in my soul but never forgotten Was a fear I would set this ticket on fire I mourn my stolen innocence every once in a while Grew up to twenty-five when I was seventeen Roaring with laughter into the silent night I saw the Sun come up the next morning I call it fool's timing It took three months for me to understand I'm sorry, I sought a painted sunrise And bought a canvas, that stayed blank I still remember the first fall of snow Early December, settled cold in my bones All alone in the sand pit I built a castle So close to the edge of the world I'll scratch out the expiry date Etched into my shoulder blades And sabotage the storyline I wrote w...

  I should've swallowed the key That kept us locked inside the haze If it would ruin us anyway I could've sworn There was a way to keep it safe Without forgetting how these ends make I wouldn't mind Biting down on the knife I could've waited Forever for the golden light I never felt a blow like this Bruising the edges of my edifice If you wait out the riptide You'll grow too heavy And you'll fade into time Like every bad memory Trading time for another Chance to stay buried To watch it all fall in place Like it always has been They waste my time Tell me "I'll never learn" My bloodshot eyes Your cold return I turn the key  Unlock my poisoned pride Will you ever ask? How I came back to life I set my body adrift  With every bone I picked Condemned to swim against the waves Bereft of the faith You said I'd find if I had stayed I took this patience to my grave And all at once I lose my grip Watch you fall without me Like I flipped the switch My gosp...

  Inspired By: The Fall of the House of Usher I thought I heard it The last call of the mockingbird My palms were ruined By the mud of my yester years Bloody slit on my lip I walk through the trees again Led by the call of the mockingbird Leading me to my end again Faces on these walls Staring at me with empty eyes Whispers impaired my hearing Haunting every second of sleep at night Intrusions turn into memories I cry red tears at the sight Of those who would wish me dead If they knew I was alive A shrouded mystery it was Running wild through my veins Questions curse my thoughts Is it worth the danger again? And all at once The mockingbird recalls my many names Speaks in riddles like punishment Sweat burrowing through my rage I licked the bowl clean And savored every bit of pain That drove me to that house Demanding my faith be retained I thought I heard it The last call of the mockingbird Told me it would be worth it Throwing my peace into the hearth Like islands that I swam to Wa...