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  Madeline, I know this might come as a shock to you But its taken me this long to come around I've spent the last 3 months personifying all these songs So it would be everything you want Madeline, I swore 8 months ago I'd figure out what I needed And so I hold our timeless hope so close As I unconditionally let you go I fear my teenage dream has delayed its spring I feel this compulsive need to explore If I could go back in time, know I wouldn't dare I've fared all of these wars a little too well Madeline, I've been trying to find all the right words But somehow now they've chosen to fail I feel the heat of your resentment on my chest It is the last of what I have left of you I called these pangs of pain my lessons Stepping stones in the garden of Eden A calling cliff with no bottom I finally see how it is Madeline, I know how this must sound Dug up from the grave in your silk gown I hate all these hatchets etched with my name With the toss of a coin these fata...

  What have you done To the summer I dreamed of? Left in a drought With a withered flowered crown You like the pursuit  But you wouldn't go in for the kill The fragility of lust Shatters under your broken skin Does this endless walk of shame Pave it's way over my grave? Sweet Magnolia I pray you never find me again And it's the insincerity Of how you know me better now That makes you draw your crooked lines Over the edge of my cold fingers I was dancing in someone else's shoes Dismantling the faith I lived in Even if it stayed with me for a moment It's left a halo all over my ruins But the summer evening breeze  Gave me the fatal bone chill Sweet Magnolia You've tailored my patience to your whim And I would like to give you The benefit of the doubt But I'm cold and unforgiving And I hoped you'd never find out I swallowed this anger That left me with weight I couldn't lose All my sincerity is buried under The armor I forged in the fires that burned me...

  I was 23, tracing the lines in the cobblestones  Tapping heels in the reds of midsummer dawn I foretold the reckoning in my sleep I tamed my complacency till it made me bleed "Fear is attachment", I say with an accent So you'll ignore what I mean Is this the yearning they said, would kill me In my deepest sleep? I can't seem to quiet the seething rage I extinguished a long time ago After all, what was it all for? An antithetical road that led me away from home? Never met in the middle but tossed out as a compulsive know- it all We were orbiting in concentric circles Lovesickness cut the invisible string I hoped your moon would have never met my Saturn But the collision was inevitable I say "Only an infidelity like this Could change the way I breathe" But if my end is prophesied I still control the means I ran full speed into an invisible wall Just as I was reaching the finish line After all, what was it all for? An antithetical road that led me away from h...

  I'm so scared of writing bad poetry I've forgotten how it was all for me I still recall how the summer gravel gave Me the taste of escape you only see in dreams and prayers All my grey skies turned porcelain It took one crack of sunlight Through the storm I was dancing in It comes back to me like compulsive sin I'm sat motionless  As my reality grows dim It's just you and me in your Ford Fiesta '03, Pacific coastline rollercoaster Cured achromaticity, I'm now one step closer I purged my memory, now I've lost you forever I'm scared of falling too fast asleep Awake in the dark, forget that you found me My pride so fragile, it shattered under my skin Now I only live through your perceptions of me All my grey skies turned porcelain It took one taste of life For you to untie my injured wings At half-past the onset of dusk I'm rewriting these old stories Of unrequited love It's just you and me in your Ford Fiesta '03, wind in my hair kind of summ...

  Inspired By: The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived I hear the conversations Fade into the noise As deep as the oceans And as fierce as the tides The summit was extraordinary And the plummet, steady I threw myself over the ledge After you were destined to catch me I call it fool's timing When the prospects of my fate had turned Buried in my soul but never forgotten Was a fear I would set this ticket on fire I mourn my stolen innocence every once in a while Grew up to twenty-five when I was seventeen Roaring with laughter into the silent night I saw the Sun come up the next morning I call it fool's timing It took three months for me to understand I'm sorry, I sought a painted sunrise And bought a canvas, that stayed blank I still remember the first fall of snow Early December, settled cold in my bones All alone in the sand pit I built a castle So close to the edge of the world I'll scratch out the expiry date Etched into my shoulder blades And sabotage the storyline I wrote w...

  I should've swallowed the key That kept us locked inside the haze If it would ruin us anyway I could've sworn There was a way to keep it safe Without forgetting how these ends make I wouldn't mind Biting down on the knife I could've waited Forever for the golden light I never felt a blow like this Bruising the edges of my edifice If you wait out the riptide You'll grow too heavy And you'll fade into time Like every bad memory Trading time for another Chance to stay buried To watch it all fall in place Like it always has been They waste my time Tell me "I'll never learn" My bloodshot eyes Your cold return I turn the key  Unlock my poisoned pride Will you ever ask? How I came back to life I set my body adrift  With every bone I picked Condemned to swim against the waves Bereft of the faith You said I'd find if I had stayed I took this patience to my grave And all at once I lose my grip Watch you fall without me Like I flipped the switch My gosp...