Indigo - The Great Masquerade

 

I've only felt the absence of a debt

Shower over me since the last time we met

Trust me, if I was in your place

I would've called checkmate, all the same

I was hidden in the shadows of indigo

Bleeding slowly into the maroon dusk

It was the silent theft of my ego

That unbuttoned the coat of holes I loved

I was so deep into the overture

I didn't want to look for anything else

I signed a search warrant for my lost love

It didn't matter, you could've been anyone else

I was a pawn in a rusted game

That was beginning to leave stains

All over the white of my brand new life

I couldn't afford to paint over again

There I was, an emotional wreck

Tracing the lines you drew that led me nowhere

Sullied the pursuit by bringing another player

Who'd rolled the dice enough to rig what's fair

I dipped my amended will in the darkest ink

Wrote your envy off as an absurdity

Tripped over the wire and broke my shell

But I would've done worse, if I was a man

And you may have had the upper hand

In charting a path paved by your convenience

But you're off to the races on your own

Betting on the horses that run for you alone

But there I was, peeking through an invisible fence

Deviating from the blueprint of my attachment

As I wrung out the sins of your past lives

Every staining atrocity began to be mine.

-auctor

June 11th, 2025