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Why is it that everything you sing sounds like a melancholy?  Why is it that you always look like a mosaic of broken dreams?  You say you've repurposed a lifetime of grief Painted over every sadness till it becomes incomplete Why shouldn't something terrible be metamorphosized into something beautiful?  And if you take a closer look, you'll see me, an emotional kaleidoscope Now you're begging for something to hold on to After you've driven every morsel of kindness that could've been show unto you You scale the walls of elevated moods and bring them crashing down You swing over the rubbled hope and land face first into the ground Do you lay there wondering why God made you this way?  So eager to jump to pretentious conclusions, only to be disappointed But it's better than feeling nothing at all and diving into an endless waterfall You say you've repurposed a lifetime of disappointment  All into a single poem Why must everything terrible remain...

Picture me in a field of daisies Eyes half open and hair tangled in the weeds Blinded by the rich golden skyline Deafened by the song of siren banshees Was it all a fever dream?  A delightful nightmare of where I had been?  Did you chase me enough through the pine trees?  Or did you wake up too early and forget how to find me?  Picture me on a titanium yacht at sea One hand in the water and the other on the wheel Stare into the horizon through your inky film Sink between the currents only to wake up with it over your head It's shameful all the things we do in the name of love It's disgraceful all the faces we change when the zipper gets stuck Like a purple thistle, I'm as sick as the rivers Like a golden missile, I'm a fear that quivers Like a silent hustle, I'm new to the towers Now watch me stumble, till I run out of hours I can't cure myself of the clinomania I always go out with the intention of being afraid  I don't mean to haunt you in your...

I've never felt an ocean of lilac before Insurmountable waves of peace, I've never drowned before I thrive in avalanches rolling down from green miles above Buried in the snow, I'm frozen like my hope All I need is your amethyst eyes to gaze into for the rest of my life Watch it slow my heartbeat down as I drift towards an endless summertime You bring me serenity and warm my cold throat nice  Like a jewel lost in the ocean, drown me in the precious lilac waters tonight I keep hearing the reckoning in the distance And I admit I'm disappointed when the battle cries don't get louder Is this what anticipation is?  I'm laying in a field of anemone buds waiting for them to bloom into lavender All I need is your amethyst eyes to gaze into for the rest of my life Watch it slow my heartbeat down as I drift towards an endless summertime You bring me serenity and warm my cold throat nice  Like a jewel lost in the ocean, drown me in the precious lilac waters ton...

I have grown used to the silence That has descended upon my soul An eerie emptiness meant to fill up all the holes Left by the raids that was meant to build a new world The more I read about it The less I try to understand it Because the pain I feel  Is just a drop in the endless ocean of their grief Are they afraid to fall asleep, for what if they wake up in the past Where the streets are wet with tears from the sky, overwhelmed by too many a whiplash I recall the black words that stained the pages red With all of the names, less survivors than the dead Did they think it was the first snow of December as the ashes lay on their lashes Did they mistake the yellow stars for a little hope but it all vanishes The more I read about it The less I try to understand it Because the pain I feel  Is a drop in the endless ocean of their grief Are they afraid to fall asleep, for what if they wake up in the past Where the streets are wet with tears from the sky, overwhelmed by t...