Forever Okay - ALCHEMICAL

 

I've fallen prey to the likes of an imposter

Driven by the guilt of my conscience

I plunge into the deepest and coldest rivers

Let the frost swallow my skin and leave my lungs punctured

These whispers pass like the cold wind through my hair

Fabricated memories live freely in my head

I sit baseless, wishing I could be someone new

Watching my crippled sense of peace drowning in the blue

I fear my soul has bathed in rust beyond repair

My covert sense of accomplishment sits at the edge of my bed

All the blood, sweat and tears that settle in my bones

Almost seems worth it somehow

I wish I would just lose my mind already

Bury with it all my hatchets and false merry

Give it three months, I'll laugh like its my circus injury

Shackled in search of happiness, I punish myself guilty

I speak in twisted tongues, that this is temporary

Forever okay but a little out of the ordinary

I'll cross that bridge when the tide gets too high

And swallow my resentment by taming my pride

I'm intellectually dishonest for my goodness sake

My assumptions are poisoned and I've been cruel as of late

With the twist of the knife there was a forbidden fate

Written into my memory, impossible to translate

Truth is seven months is a really long time

I'm more patient than I was and I wish I could fly

Closer to the sun each time I felt like it

And burn in my memory that I do in fact exist.

-auctor