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  I've fallen prey to the likes of an imposter Driven by the guilt of my conscience I plunge into the deepest and coldest rivers Let the frost swallow my skin and leave my lungs punctured These whispers pass like the cold wind through my hair Fabricated memories live freely in my head I sit baseless, wishing I could be someone new Watching my crippled sense of peace drowning in the blue I fear my soul has bathed in rust beyond repair My covert sense of accomplishment sits at the edge of my bed All the blood, sweat and tears that settle in my bones Almost seems worth it somehow I wish I would just lose my mind already Bury with it all my hatchets and false merry Give it three months, I'll laugh like its my circus injury Shackled in search of happiness, I punish myself guilty I speak in twisted tongues, that this is temporary Forever okay but a little out of the ordinary I'll cross that bridge when the tide gets too high And swallow my resentment by taming my pride I'm in...

  Inspired By: Good Luck Babe! I know I led the storm back to you The red roses, cherry wine you're used to Can't find a place in my lilac haze I'm stuck in a ruthless witch's maze I keep this rage locked  Inside my titanium vault For one day I may be  Worthy of no shame I know you're somewhere Living the lie of a rich man's wife Silencing songs of regret That play like gunshots in your mind Does it come fast? Your blind faith in forgetting the past Does it leave you satisfied With everything you left behind? I know I'm faster when the Sun is down I've raced my whole life finding my way out I've grown weary enough I'm tired of wasting all my love I'm in the alcove Banging my head into the bricks My blue knuckled grin of shame Sinks my heart into its grave Deathless and emotional The two sides of a rotten coin I flip with my eyes closed Choosing my blind faith over my mind These walls of impenetrable stone You made me build up brick by brick I...

  I rushed my quest for solace Cried black tears when I overshot my chances And I sink to the bottom of the lake Like a dagger soaked in blood for a day I sat at the helm of my ship Hands on my thighs and frost on my lips And into the scarlet sunset I sailed As old as time and as wretched as faith And so I passed the bottle With the echo of my misery intact Fought flames with my matches over the weekend  Let it burn to amber ribbons of happenstance I sleep with the blue ashes Of my burning memory Hovering over the horizon Of my fading fantasy Amongst my countless crimes Was a prayer for continued misery I rewrite my book of faith each night Burning these candles of counterfeit divinity And so I passed the bottle With the echo of my misery intact Anonymity is a rich man's scandal So I sign my name in gold and black As I lie flat over the green lands And let the daises grow over me I bathe in the golden sunlight As the rolling mountain air devours me For the last time, I passed ...

  These long hard looks in the mirror I can't see eye-to-eye with who I wish I'd be And I may have stood too close behind the door Listening to see if the storm I brewed would just leave me be But I feel like I've known my whole life Sworn to protect my faith wide-eyed Lost in the back yard burying my weight in gold I raged in black, with death pondering my soul I lay flat arms across my chest Subtle waves of blue danced under my skin My eyes closed forever in haunting silences My lips pursed in honor of all my grievances But I feel like I've known you my whole life Waiting ever patiently, drinking my peace down like wine Lost in the bottom of the ocean, drowning my weight in gold Dressed down in black, with death pondering my soul And if it were up to me  I'd fade into you so perfectly Stuck on the wall like your favorite flower Burst into flames like ribbons of your amber But I feel I should've known better all my life Old enough to beseech for more time Still...