auctor

  We run for the fences Electric burns on our temples And I'm falling faster lately I let you curse every lifetime for me I scream to the heavens Beseech for another chance at this I'll lick the blood off my fists  High on the violets planted on my knuckles in haste We crumble our defenses Cure the phantom pains before it settles But have you seen death lay flat On the bed you rest your eyes on? I scream to the heavens Like the midnight blue stained my soul just yesterday And I'll chase after the ravens That circled your nights and haunted your days Maybe I was blind to flawless daze And perched myself on the highest branch that day Faulty, was my demeanor in the cold Walked back, feet bleeding through my soles   I scream to the heavens Like my God given patience was intoxicated desperation  I'll tend to the wounded I bruised with my prudence because I never learned when to walk away. -auctor

  This thumping leaves me endlessly Your crimson supernova left a mark on me I sold my soul to the devil in the trees The closest I came to flying free Lady in Red? Why did you leave me for dead? I was a starlet In your hornet's nest I was chased Through the wicked woods By your one and only Blood knuckled muse My fingertips were violet and laced Cleaving my teeth with the blindest rage This age old resentment will pass away With the tyrants that loved me more this way But there I was invested In more than just my downfall I understand that those Who have come before me Have flattened the needles  On the path I walk on Lady in Red? How could you leave me for dead? I was a starlet In your hornet's nest I was chased Through the wicked woods By your one and only Blood knuckled muse Lady in Red? Does your poetry reflect? The guilt with which You warm your bed Does your sleep Come as peacefully? As it did before You grew tired of me I took the hint Like a shot through the chest Wit...

  May this have been my only chance I wasted what I thought was a happenstance So I search for a wilder twist of fate And promise the Gods I will behave I prepare myself for that fateful day When the Sun might set on my fermented shame I'll down a bottle of confidence Like the last three months haven't belittled my faith I fall through the cracks that I made with my fist Holding on with the hope I have yet to break in And watch as the endings sequentialize Into episodes of torment because without it who am I? I sit with my book alone on the beach I couldn't tell you which chapter I'd been reading At the eye of my spiral played my favorite film All my dried tears sparkle like it was all a gift It could've been something I cherished for life It made me tremble because I never thought twice It's left me wanting to bring color to my face These black and white dreams aren't for the brave I touched the white grass and froze this grief in time Buried like the hatch...

  As I mourn the loss of something That was never mine I hold my breath for three minutes Hear the sound of my blood Reminding me I'm still alive Floating on the purple- pink Lilo  Half swallowed by a cyclone of chance I look through the stained glass windows Dye life into my perceptions again I followed through on my compulsions And if I need to stay a little longer Leave me be to fall asleep half-witted Like a golden light on the brinks of a burning altar I drink my angst down like poison You can take my silence for what it is  For I'm still pinning over the sunset I've never seen outside these delusions So I flew back to Boston Half of my life forgotten I swallowed my judgement And unboxed by prudence I stepped out of my coffin My death dress all crumpled Cinders on my tapestry  And my oak wood table My chalice overflows High on temporary adjustments You can take my patience for what it is A chance I've taken on everything I've never known I still recall a versio...