The Life You Leave Behind

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Every time I was pushed outside the circle 

I said, "Well now I have a better point of  view"

They used to jump through the hoops I used to crawl under

Got left behind cleaning the mud off my boots


I used to believe God saves his sweetest conspiracies for his favorites

I ended up starving for attention by being everybody's friend

But in reality I was just a tabloid always a day too old on the news

Got over wrung out and was left to dry out wrinkled and over used


Over time I fed on the sadness of my friends

To everything in the world, I could relate

Sorrow, misery, nothing and everything 

In a single year, I had a taste 


Frightened yet lonely, I sought my own company

And built a castle out of the clouds in my head

Imperfections polished and armor tarnished 

Suddenly I stopped being myself


As I look back on how far I have come

The bruises have blossomed into violets

Even though I am three steps ahead of it 

I can still feel that fire burning 


I was held hostage in my own sand castle

Praying for the waves to bring these walls down

I was drenched in the blood of my own muscle 

Spasmed and hollowed by a dagger blunted


When I was at my worst, I was at my happiest

Bold and unforgivable, everyday was a miracle

I gave up on things that were good for me 

And sought new experiences that could potentially change me


My complacency stunts my evolution, so I seek another land

The farther I run, I hope my bones turn to stardust

Smoke billows from my ears for I have overheard

That the life you leave behind, is the one you miss the most. 



-auctor

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