Forgotten One

 I've never been more disappointed

I could see that look in your eyes

I was a stranger to you in this town

Praying my tears would dry

That perplexity in your face

Is no further from mine

Now I'm raging at myself

To think it would be worth the climb

There's nothing left for me to do

There's nothing left for me to say

I was down for a series of inside jokes

Not a goodbye with good grace

I'm too scared to scream and shout

I'm too tired to figure it all out

It's not my job to dumb it all down

I'd rather stay the forgotten one

I know you're trying your best

To recall what I claim

Your kindness is impressive

I accept defeat and walk away

There's nothing left for me to do

There's nothing left for me to say

I was prepared for a lifetime of inside jokes

Not a good bye with good grace

I'm too scared to scream and shout

I'm too tired to figure it all out

I don't want to dumb it down

I'd rather be the forgotten one

I don't usually fight this hard

But I don't usually know what I want

I keep dreaming about your scarf

Tangled in your hair left long

I feel fifteen years older

They say things just get scarier

And you can travel across the world

But soon you'll find out what it means to have a person for a home

There's nothing left for me to do

There's nothing left for me to say

I wasn't prepared for the storm that hit me

But I really wanted to stay

I'm too scared to scream and shout

I'm too tired to figure it all out

But if I have to I will dumb it down

I don't want to be the forgotten one. 

-auctor