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I've been lost many times before  But never have I been this alone  I've been on the wrong side of the waters before But I always managed to find the surface I've been surviving on the hope of silver linings It's aching, all my bones as I'm fighting for my life I see you tame the towering waves trying to engulf you Now I know where my heart aims to swim to Even when the darkest minds curse all our fame and fortune I'll still be the mariner chasing after you  They can poison my afternoon and mid morning sun But when the sea gets a little too rough, sail towards me, my love Rest now, you have done enough  You have made me proud for years to come  Through the thundering nights and the blazing days  You will be remembered as more than just a haze I've been surviving on the hope of silver linings It's aching, all my bones as I'm fighting for my life I see you tame the towering waves trying to engulf you Now I know where my heart aims to swim to Even when ...

Dirt underneath my fingernails Scars on my palms from scaling fences A diabolical silence from being the only one Who couldn't make it across the walls to kingdom come All the church bells are ringing songs of victory  But I hear it fade into the dissonance  A gallant affair I'm presumably having with my own ambivalence It's vested in me a seemingly innocuous fantasy Where I make all the castles my home  And never leave these walls of refuge behind Who cares if it never truly belongs to me  It's all in the mind and it won't be the first time With holes in my shoes and my body nearly run dry I'm surviving on a thread of hope tugging me to the finish line How did it know where exactly to lead me, I ask?  When you're scraping the bottom of your treasury Everything is a silver lining amassed I imagine all the fires burning for me The embers taking shape and guiding me out of reveries It's a pointless affair even if it had happened it's all about prioriti...

If you could see everything from my perspective Then I would be a little less wrong I'm surfing on low tides and cursing the currents  Awaiting the towering waves of daunt It's true I'm not the perfect example of a good soul The markings of purity is something new to me I don't feel guilt nor do I feel confliction  My hands untied I feel an odd sense of freedom I have what it takes  I've just been wasting my potential in the wrong places  I have a kaleidoscopic mindset  And the drive to make myself a person of interest If you could see everything from my perspective Then I would be a little less wrong I'm surfing on low tides and cursing the currents  Awaiting the towering waves of daunt My cursed morality and ethical insincerity Have a hold on every decision I make  My experience hasn't taught me much  Except to constantly second guess myself I'm scared of drowning  I can't swim in waters I've never sailed before  I know the consequence...

I have been dreaming in Kodachrome I've spent all my money on fallen hope I let the tidal waves engulf me completely Now I'm drowning in an ocean of dreamless sleep Rose tinted skies and lilac stained clouds Euphoria doused in kaleidoscope highs, gone rogue  It flows endlessly, a river of weeping fantasies Leading my amity into retrograde back down the golden road it came They used to tell me how my bones and my face were lovely And how all the glitter in the world had nothing on me But like every shining star I eventually burned out  With time, it has never really been very kind Rose tinted skies and lilac stained clouds Euphoria doused in kaleidoscope highs, gone rogue  It flows endlessly, a river of weeping fantasies Leading my amity into retrograde back down the golden road it came I've never been known to believe in higher power Lately my peace is waning and I can't find a way out It's wanting, all the love I should've asked for before But cutting lines is ...

You know where all my broken pieces lie Buried under an ocean of tears you made me cry Its serenity has belied my state of mind  I was ingenuous to all of your fiendish crimes  You were the nexus to my eventual downfall You stepped over the line meant to keep me in place All my following desolation chose you as it's lead Caught up to your aching feet and pulled you underneath  I was crestfallen at the sight Of my headstone facing away from the fading light A gathered crowd sanguine in all their Sunday best The news reads I've fallen from grace because I just don't know how to let go, now I'm dead You were the nexus to my eventual downfall You stepped over the line meant to keep me in place All my following desolation chose you as it's lead Caught up to your aching feet and pulled you underneath  Oh heaven I'm begging you to pull me back I don't really want another chance  When I reach the golden gates will you remember who I am?  Will you trust that I haven...