Misery - CANDOUR

I wash off the blood from my hands

And I feel the cuts I never knew were there before

I stare at the face in my bathroom mirror

And I condemn the impulsive decisions she made

I snapped the reigns on my misery 

And I let it trample over everything nice

You know I love a good apology

But I'm too vindictive to apologize

I sharpen all the knives I've never used

I've learnt to make symbolic cuts exactly where it hurts the most

I followed the map on my patterned body 

And I hate to say that I'm actually grateful for that

I snapped the reigns on my misery 

And I let it trample over everything nice

You know I love a good apology

But I'm too vindictive to apologize

My violet skin and my darkened fingertips

Know exactly where the hatches are buried

Blindly, i let them guide me through the dirt

And watch my eternal sobriety get sullied 

I've been working overtime to un- paradox this labyrinth 

Now I'm sucker punching skies because they promised I'd survive

But you were like a spineless shadow, they caught you drunk on sin, never thought you would give in

I snapped the reigns on my misery 

And I let it trample over everything nice

You know I love a good apology

But I'm too vindictive to apologize.

-auctor