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I bet you were everyone's teenage dream But my honey oak and your Philadelphia smoke Couldn't put two and two together even if it wanted to Call me Jezebel for all the things I've craved You mistake your hate for me for God given faith How did your jealousy, manage to outshine mine You have run out of your love for me And i have run out of patience tonight But take me back, take me back And all the things I should've I said like that I should have followed you down And out blindly into the crowd Take me back take me back And all the things I should've said like that I'd call you my Prometheus but the only thing you've given me is salty floods Did your halo shine brighter than the moon that night? When you walked out of one of our petty fights How long does is take to figure out that in every war both sides are fought So I can't be the only one found rotting in the mid summer sun Call me your existential crisis waiting for the wrong time to show up Questi...

I'm bound to my existential crisis and so I stand here frozen in time I have no prospects of moving on so I stand here just waiting to die If being pierced through the heart with words as sharp as sin wasn't enough Your teardrops stained the pillow red where you head used to lie next to mine I always knew you were a sucker for turmoil Made me watch as you calmed the seas I admit, it was fascinating from all sides But not as much when you're behind the scenes When my doubt started becoming obvious I knew you wouldn't like me anymore  At least like you used to before Your carefully drafted replies, outshone those shiny lies And that blinding light cut through my dreams sharper than a knife Suddenly the air turned maroon and the heat rushed to my face And I felt the gravity intensify as I tried to fly away I always knew you were a sucker for turmoil Made me watch as you calmed the seas I admit, it was fascinating from all sides But not as much when you're behind the sc...

I wash off the blood from my hands And I feel the cuts I never knew were there before I stare at the face in my bathroom mirror And I condemn the impulsive decisions she made I snapped the reigns on my misery  And I let it trample over everything nice You know I love a good apology But I'm too vindictive to apologize I sharpen all the knives I've never used I've learnt to make symbolic cuts exactly where it hurts the most I followed the map on my patterned body  And I hate to say that I'm actually grateful for that I snapped the reigns on my misery  And I let it trample over everything nice You know I love a good apology But I'm too vindictive to apologize My violet skin and my darkened fingertips Know exactly where the hatches are buried Blindly, i let them guide me through the dirt And watch my eternal sobriety get sullied  I've been working overtime to un- paradox this labyrinth  Now I'm sucker punching skies because they promised I'd survive But you ...

Eternity is a curse, one I brought upon myself Craving immortality wouldn't you wish to live forever too If you were given the chance to If you are never going to breathe your last then you will have nothing to live for Emotional saturation is an inevitability, nothing to look forward to If only I could dive into that sapphire I tell you I don't want you but you know I'm a liar Pity my broken designs so you can put me together Changing minds is not something I fancy either You called me an odd bird flying away from the right direction I deafen the noises I think is irrelevant but when it's you it seems to matter You ask me about shabby drawings on my skin that never seem to fade Incredibly hilarious, I find it, when your eyes magnify and I'm flooded with that colourful bane If only I could dive into that sapphire I tell you I don't want you but you know I'm a liar Pity my broken designs so you can put me together Changing minds is not something I fancy eithe...

Your silent letters kept me warm till midnight I paced these broken floors enough to start a great fire Forbidden love is what makes every story great But I see no indication that we might ever have a happy ending You stained my soul violet with every apology I thought we found a way out of the forest, didn't we?  I was balancing on broken stilts I thought once held me upright I hate to call you difficult but easy doesn't always mean right The air turned maroon and the heat ran to my face I was ready to leave the ground and go in search of a better place I used to put you on a golden pedestal but I don't have it in me anymore I feel like such a waste of space on your heartbreak calendar You stained my soul violet with every apology I thought we found a way out of the forest, didn't we?  I was balancing on broken stilts I thought once held me upright I hate to call you difficult but easy doesn't always mean right Beauty lies in the perception of the soul I saw who yo...