Cruel World- Stories From the Afterlife

What could I have done

To make you change your mind

A false sense of security

Is understandably a lie

It never occurred to me

That I was your safety net

I'm sorry I took it down

And made you plunge to your death

I know you waited on me

At the airport every night

I didn't have the heart to show up

Now I'm the cause of your plight

You're a picture perfect damsel in distress

And it's a cruel world, I built all by myself

What could I have done

To dilute my toxicity

You didn't like all the things I loved for you

And that made me so angry

It never occurred to me

To ask you what you want

I made false assumptions

No one but me is at fault

I know you waited on me

At the airport every night

I didn't have the heart to show up

Now I'm the cause of your plight

You're a picture perfect, damsel in distress

And it's a cruel world, I built all by myself

I look at you and I go down a rabbit hole thinking

There's that shoulder that used to freeze my tears till they were bolder

There's that smirk that used to show up like an epiphany out of nowhere

There's that demeanor whitewashed against the blue walls 

So imperfectly in sync and obvious like free fall

There's that mansion that has now left me homeless

And there's that hand I bit while it fed me the only kindness

I will ever know was true

It never occurred to me

How repulsive I was

I owe you everything

For accepting every flaw

I know you waited on me

On the airport every night

I didn't have the heart to show up

Now I'm the cause of your plight

You're a picture perfect, damsel in distress

And it's a cruel world, I built all by myself. 

-Neha Bhende