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  I pray you leave me something I can go on for Because even when you're here, your spirit is far gone The pools in your eyes are fighting mine and begging me to let you go Drowning my patience and my hope with you I carve my name on your side of the bed  Hoping you remember who I am  Before the sun sets once again I write my name on your chest  Hoping you remember where I am  Close enough to the end of all the ends Why'd you whisper in the dark, slow and steady  Till my heart, gives out and goes fleeing  I search the skies for the star meant to guide me  In the dark that's in your chest leave you heaving  I stand on the other side with my ear to the door  Run over by jealousy and by the only heartthrob  You make me feel lucky and overly grateful  Its like poison and my tolerance is the medicine I carve my name on your side of the bed  Hoping you remember who I am  Before the sun sets once again I write my name on you...

  There was a fire that ran up hill  As unprecedented as an eclipse It latched onto the violets on my skin And surrendered a sadness that left me thin Everyone is entitled to the perpetuity of something Alcoholic respite is momentary and imaginary And when the wine spills over It'd have aged like the time we surrendered  In exchange for an eternity together The towering bridges and weeping ridges crumbled before me And I found it hard to believe I wasn't a catalyst to catastrophe It sits on the back of my tongue  Threatening me to swallow it down The absence of solace, a glimmer in the darkness  And I'm running back to it again Our field of dreams battered and bruised by nostalgic rules Now I weep into my bathtub and let the shower burn your touch off me Let my memory turn to dust at your feet Let the circus find its way to abduct me Amongst the shackles and the whiplash bleeding I've never been more at peace The towering bridges and weeping ridges crumbled befo...

  As the tides of my defeat begin to recede And my white flag of peace starts to rip at the seams Whispers in passing, I still hear them laughing It gave me something when nothing was all I was capable of feeling They burn every material essence of me But the ashes settle on everything Metaphorical soaring but literal falling My descent was blurry like bone crushing poetry I'm having to question and justify my existence Is my reflection some scripted deep rooted nonsense?  When the first light of Sun strikes me like an antidote A wave of warmth engulfs me as my heart turns to dust Frost settles on the ashes of my conquest I hold the matches in my clenched fist All the blood lore drenched on the carpet Blue flames dance at the foot of my bed I never fell in this deep enough to struggle to find the surface My rage strangled the air and was feuding with the oceans My pain seems counterfeit cloaked by guilt that's genuine Please don't remember me in this light I shone a little ...

These predisposed intuitions I tried to ignore like old wives lore I dreamed myself laid across a murder board Falling is a feeling, I can never give up on There was a fatal flaw That left my candle burning This subtle flirt with fire In the madness of my ruin These prophesied battles That let my scars shine  I dreamed they'd lead me to my soul I lost in every bloody fight I'd leave the window open Drink down my shallow pride I feel a subtle tremble And for some reason, I don't mind I cry glitter onto my hardwood floor And pray to God you feel the same I read into your composure  Through the holes of your picket fence trade I read too much into the reaper That lies untouched on your marigold bed I swallow the inherent fear That holds me tethered to a failing trend There was a fatal flaw That left my candle burning This subtle flirt with fire In the madness of my ruin These prophesied battles That let my scars shine  I dreamed they'd lead me to my soul I lost in every bl...

  Let me find a way to fit this into my timeline Clearing the sand over the path i paved for a lifetime Insincere till i tipped over the ledge Does it matter if I'm as wild as these days of dread? Cherry blossoms on my shoulder  Lift me up, make me a feel a little lighter This broken breath plays around Like the wrong song that's your favorite now  I cracked open the fortune cookie I was living in the shadow of another me God complex so deceiving it once made me happy Settled like snow on the old roads that caved in a hurry Cherry blossoms on my shoulder  Lift me up, make me a feel a little lighter This broken breath plays around Like the wrong song that's your favorite now  And when for once My terror has left me to be I feel the ghost of a prophecy Telling me it was just a bad feeling But I'm too stunned to trust my gut Even though its carried me away from the flood I may not have drowned that fateful day  Walking home alone, and I knew Where this road wo...