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 I couldn't leave just yet but I had to My faith was fading and there was nothing to cling to The silver string that tied us turned to rust I'm polishing it endlessly afraid that it might break off I could have stayed forever in the back of your mind Loved too deep and drowned too far in time It was so terrible it made you seem nice The black tears on my face is your dark night I could have stayed forever in these hopeful lies All I got was silence but the polite kind I know you're hoping I get there soon Past this cursed paradise and over the moon Half burnt floorboards smelling of lavender rose Stained glass windows I know I'll never be your home I sometimes question if I'll be persuasive enough To replace the books on your shelf, with the ones of myself I could have stayed forever in the back of your mind Loved too deep and drowned too far in time It was so terrible it made you seem nice The black tears on my face is your dark night I could have stayed forever in...

I knew it from the start that we were cursed Meant to scrape the bottom of a love gone thirst Every piece of me scattered beyond reach This is just me saying I'll forever be incomplete Everything starts with miscommunication Meant to tear worlds apart, nothing I could trade in For another chance, its left me tempting and unfaithful It could be the one thing, I will ever know as real I can't hold back the scarlet vapors Meant to keep me in control Taught me how to read your signals Now I can't understand your soul Curse all the scarlet vapors That followed me home I breathed in deceit and doubt And every thing looks like that now I knew it from the way one thrives on shame Did my goodbyes leave you on the right end of pain? Maybe all this comes down to the need to compete Who sits at the head of the table and who needs to grab an extra seat I can't hold back the scarlet vapors That suffocated me in my sleep Every nightmare before, now feels like a dream Clearing the air ...

 I've started blaming the stars because I didn't try hard enough I lost all my money betting on how I was the best out of the lot I'm not exactly humble when it comes to realizing The world won't wait for me and I'm just another hot headed sheep Blabbering about how I make good decisions I'm not a complainer and I think it makes up for it Where did my priorities get lost in the thrill Started out a day at a time now weeks have gone by My soulless dramatics have paved the way for Me to understand where exactly I would fit in Not in some money churning half intentioned Passion for living on gold coins I bring in Why didn't I get out when I had the chance Pleasing my own family left me being pretentious All that soon washed away as I tried to seem like everything was mine All the planning, all the excitement, leave me be now in my midlife crisis I have so much more time, is what I think as I plot my lies It'll all come together in the end, I hope I don'...

 You slipped in the dirt of your expelled sorrows Scraped your knees on the pavement of your cemented fears Cursed the stars and the planets for not forgiving you fast enough Wiped your hands on your pants and dried your tears Every silver lining and rainbow after the storms Makes you believe that happiness is conditional There are clouds in the skies of your eyes And they're raining down dark puddles of paradise Could it be the moon deflecting every little shade thrown at it All that's left is the silver light now you go after it Strawberry pink and lilac sunsets makes you wonder what you're living for Your hair grows a little lighter than you're used to but you've never felt younger Now you're counting the nights you can't seem to sleep too right Worried the universe is trying to steal your thunder Every silver lining and rainbow after the storms Makes you believe that happiness is conditional There are clouds in the skies of your eyes And they're rain...