auctor

 Yours was the voice I would run to in my sleep Mine were the arms you chose as your remedy I couldn't picture you in better and brighter light A mosaic of faces that faded well with time You had a gold plated lifeline I envied A theme for every 2000's house party Your silhouette is in the corner watching me As I metamorphose into a vintage has been I'm slowly wilting as the autumn breeze runs it fingers through my hair I'm a fever dream that never stuck around long enough to be a vintage trend I leave polaroids of myself everywhere until I'm engraved in your mind I'm only pessimistic until I'm in the deep end and then I'm proven right You had a gold plated lifeline I envied A theme for every 2000's house party Your silhouette is in the corner watching me As I metamorphose into a vintage has been Pastel pink sunrise my evening glow disguise Put you in your place at some 90's game Flashbacks in sepia, stripped shadows on regia Put me in my place a...

 I wasn't so eager to see you go You poisoned my fate into a shadow Paragliding through every clouded emotion But I sensed you were holding on too long and too strong I wish I knew I was pressing every button It's become too easy to lose and be forgotten I played it too safe, anyone can take my place I'm just another whimsical mistake everybody makes Did you have to twist the knife and tear out the soul in my bones ? I won't get back all the nights I wasted mending them all I can't see myself in the mirror for the fear I won't know who I am anymore I didn't have to lose like this and be so lovelorn I'm chasing after you in black and white I'm turning every key in my eyeline While everyone was winning life I sat patiently on the sidelines Till I fade into the aftermath I wouldn't be so eager to clap For my victories were folklore and nothing else Living was some over complicated plan I wish I knew every move I made meant taking a step back Every l...

 I wish I could've been One of your Aurora Borealis dreams Pirouetting in violet and green And syncopating your breathing But I'm soldiering on like I don't feel a thing Our stairwell rendezvous are losing their tint Now we fade into black, still holding hands Our folkloric tragedy makes us come back Shame is the trigger to ruin And I'm the bullet left fuming But you pull it anyway Gunpowder stains in our alleyways Trust is the trigger to fooling And you're the bullet still leaving But I pull it anyway Gunpowder stains and now we're castaways It was just one of those things Cider brooks and suburban dreams I never would've ever been A photographic memory amongst your things But I'm still soldiering on like I don't feel a thing My fingerprints on your soul have started fading Shame is the trigger to ruin And I'm the bullet left fuming But you pull it anyway Gunpowder stains in our alleyways Trust is the trigger to fooling And you're the bullet...

 You cloak the banister with your sweater The first time you come home You storm out in a fit of fury I've never been more scared that you'll always leave forever It's such a mystery I made it this far without getting burnt I tend to back out reflexly hoping you would do it first You can never overflow a broken glass and so all your love went to waste The rushing blood cut all strings to my heart and the burgundy sunk into my veins I pour all the coffee down the drain Knowing it'll never be as good as yours, leaves a bitter taste You stop by just to say you've left some things behind, you stutter Your stalled bewilderment makes my heart flutter The month old poppies in the hallway As dry as the tears I have left to cry I've been spending my days like winter nights Drowning in blood red bottles and violet moonlight highs It's such a mystery I made it this far without getting burnt I tend to back out reflexly hoping you would do it first You can never overflo...